I thought I knew you, but the time we came closer, you were a stranger to me. A person I have known for years is no more the person I knew ever.
Spending time with my heart and making efforts to recognize my dreams has been the best part of the past several months. But life has its discourse, it chose you to be with that someone for some time.
Destiny can be daunting sometimes, I end up with a person, I never imagined in my worst dream. I don’t know where we are heading, or where our relationship will take me.
When I am with you at this moment and I am me!!
You are not a ‘wrong one’ for me, but the one with whom I can never see the dawn. You are a delightful hope.
Instead of listening to my heart, I let my mind prevails and tries to be brave to say the words stuck in my throat. I was a slow maker where you wanted to run forward. I knew you weren’t a place to let go off my weight, my heart was yearning for more lightness.
I was fearful to allow someone to touch my being, afraid to get weathered; individuality of my soul is something that I cherish greatly. But I took a leap with you, exposing the vulnerability of my heart.
I left my part in you!!
From thinking to feeling to becoming yours; love takes leaps and bounces to make space in our hearts, to adapt to fit.
Our Love was never supposed to be fairytale romance, the grand gestures, the candles, the roses and the carefree dispositions. It’s not like coming home and never having a single worry again. You have to travel through the darkness to see the light in me. You have to go through hell and back with me. It requires patience and lots of work.
Love is not only for Valentine but for every day, choosing that person every time, even if there is nothing left to pursue; you still love. Even in arguments, you hold onto, it’s like choosing to smile when you feel like screaming.
If you chose to stick around, it’s worth it.
With time, love gets a different expression; it’s no more romantic conversation. The spark disappears. The dreamy glaze turns into emotionless stare.
You become too familiar with the person that you forget to appreciate that you are with the person once you prayed for!!
With you, I’m recognizing what I really want in a partner and how I want to feel in a relationship. I’m learning how I can be. Shading the desire to have a ‘perfect partner’, I no longer idealise a relationship.
I want you to love me but my way!!
My promise to you is that I will be your Best Friend, will be there to talk to, and will not be afraid to show you the harsh reality. But it’s not us, it’s you and me. I learned that life is individual. You can never be ‘The One’ for me, from here, I have to measure my journey on my own.
